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24 December 2002 @ 07:43 pm
Grxflgggnxxxxxx . . .  
I should'a wrote sooner that I've been less depressed than that last entry. Not all beer and skittles by any means, but, you know, moments of actual okayness. Sill a rollercoaster, but at least not a bottomed-out and stalled rollercoaster.

One of the things . . . have you ever noticed? . . . I've got a whole lot of things to do -- a lot of things on my proverbial plate -- and I've been able to get some of them done, but it seems like when I get them done is not entirely volitional. I mean, sometimes I can massage images in Photoshop, sometimes I can do web pages (just put up a site for Gavi's school's parents' association), sometimes I can write, sometimes I can clean or do laundry or dishes, sometimes I can talk with people . . . but it seems that rarely can I do all or whichever many of those things I want to exactly when I want to or all at the same time or something. For ex: "Gee, I owe an email response to X," so I find myself able to do image processing but not writing. Grumble.

Hope I'm in a "capable of talking" mood tomorrow so I can go to (oh, poop, what's their LiveJournal name?) . . . anyway, their party.

Am late to help Gavi do her "make bubble gum" science experiment that was part of one of her birthday presents, so I best run.

Love to all.
 
 
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A Wandering Hobbitredbird on December 24th, 2002 06:03 pm (UTC)
Have a *hug*, and say hi to folks for me.

I've found that any number of things that count as "work" themselves can also be work-avoidance behavior; much more wrestling with writing history review material and I may even get back to the novel-in-progress again.
Fred A Levy Haskell: Fredcritter Mark IV by Reed Wallerfredcritter on December 25th, 2002 01:12 pm (UTC)
And a *hug* back. Thanks. Will indeed try to remember to say "hi" for you. Am currently trying to gather my strength to go over. Susan has come down with a *bad* cold, so it'll just be me & Gavi. I expect we won't stay too long....

I am familiar with using other work to avoid work, and truly there is sometimes some of that. But many other times is really isn't -- I can focus enough or in the right directions to, let's say, read, but not to do images. Or to write but not to ... well, and so on. It seems it takes a different kind of focus or energy or something.

(Maybe that's what "getting it all together" means -- being able to do whatever one chooses to, rather than being restricted by what one is able to do....)
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Peter Hentgesjbru on December 25th, 2002 01:02 am (UTC)
Yep, that's them. I so like the delicious irony of my life that seeing Fred is kind of a Christmas tradition.
Fred A Levy Haskell: Fredcritter Mark IV by Reed Wallerfredcritter on December 25th, 2002 01:16 pm (UTC)
!!!!
Peter Hentgesjbru on December 25th, 2002 01:19 am (UTC)
A thing I notice in myself is that when I have many things to do, I find that each makes the others harder to start and thus, I do nothing. So if faced with three things to do, I'll be so distracted by two that the one I start begins to get overwhelming.

This turned into a big enough thought to justify a post in my own journal. Thanks, Fred.
Fred A Levy Haskell: Fredcritter Mark IV by Reed Wallerfredcritter on December 25th, 2002 01:20 pm (UTC)
Yup.

And a good post it is too. I'm proud to have catalyzed it.
Stephen Leighsleigh on December 25th, 2002 05:52 am (UTC)
Best of the season to you, Fred!
Fred A Levy Haskell: Fredcritter Mark IV by Reed Wallerfredcritter on December 25th, 2002 01:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Steve! And, as always, our very best to you and yours. (Susan's waiving "hi" in the background....)
A monstrous ramblingbibliofile on December 27th, 2002 09:35 am (UTC)
Catching up
Glad to hear you're doing better than in that one post -- yay you. Sorry to have missed you at the Xmas day thing, which we apparently helped close.

I mean, sometimes I can massage images in Photoshop, sometimes I can do web pages (just put up a site for Gavi's school's parents' association), sometimes I can write, sometimes I can clean or do laundry or dishes, sometimes I can talk with people . . .

Know what you mean. Each requires a different set of skills/thought processes. It is helpful to realize that's what's going on, though, and then to switch tasks as capabilities arise. Heck, took me years to figure out that writing & editing were two different things & both harder to do when tried together.
Fred A Levy Haskell: Fredcritter Mark IV by Reed Wallerfredcritter on December 30th, 2002 01:02 am (UTC)
Re: Catching up
Thanks. Me too.

Yes, sorry to have missed you as well. Gavi and I were there around, I don't know, 4 or 5, but I quickly discovered that any vestige of ability to engage in polite social intercourse I might have thought I possessed when leaving my house somehow managed to flee while we were en route or shortly upon our arrival. We did do our bangers, but then I mostly sat and watched others talk for a while and then decided it'd be more comfortable for all if we just said, you know, "thanks, it was lovely, wish we could stay longer, see you soon," and like that. It was probably just as well -- I awoke the next day with this headcold....

Are you still in town? Might we manage to put something together if I get well soon?

Thank you. I do believe you do. It is indeed helpful to know, but it still is frustrating those times when what I want, would like, or indeed need to do doesn't correspond with what I can do. Ah well. Life goes on.

Knowledge is one thing; application can be another. Have you figured out the trick of getting your editor to go to sleep for now -- she'll get a whack at what's written once it's done -- and just let you write? I haven't, and I wish I could. Hmmmm. I wonder if some percentage of those writers who drink while working do so to knock out their editor...